sick

blocked nose..go away!!! it's better to have a runny nose. at least I still can smell 'shit'. oops apologize me for  literally using the words. but yeah, one of the function of nose to me is to smell my "shit"( oops i did it again ). Have you ever heard that shit gives some particular smells and it tells you about your health condition? hey I am not kidding. its not that i don't wanna to tell you how but i don't want you to feel disgusted to me.lol. but i believe that and i am still practicing that routine. (*psst...if you really and urgently want to know about it...just email me*)

ok..back to earth..since i came back from Malaysia, my health is gradually worsen. i get cold and  it has been 4 days!! i couldn't breath properly and have sore throat this morning. come on body..i need you for my another one-week trip starting this monday .. :( hiks... i haven't eaten any medicine yet..i don't believe the market- medicines. i only eat what my mom gives. since i am not at home now and i have no stock in my room , i guess i will just let it go with the time. hopefully i will get well soon.

anw, yesterday, i ate waffle and ice cream. i knew that i am having a cold but i just couldn't resist it. haha..the seller gave promotion. buy 1 scoop free another scoop!! haha!! and those were for my dinner..  yeah...feel like eating it again now!! hehehe..

i guess when you are sick,your whole body inside will just get warmer and you will feel thirsty all the time.that's what happen to me now. i keep getting dehydrated. so eating ice creams soothes my tongue.

during my school term, believe me,i can tell you how many times i went to bed in a month. i was mostly awake at night to do my works. i barely have time to pee you know. if you bumped into me, i think you wouldn't be able to recognize me as i have evolved becoming like a zombie.i was look like a walking ghost with a pale face and huge black eye-bagged and i was hanging around between school's corridor and the photo studio. apparently, there were a lot of 'creatures' like  me you could see in my school especially at night period. all of these 'creatures' would come out walking here and there from toilet to their work station or from vending machine to the pantry. and you would slowly fell like you were pulled to the other world. that's how bad it was when the deadline are in front of your nose.

though I had a bad way of living, i never got sick..however, this holiday, I just can't understand why my slacking and mostly spent with sleeping days,can end up with getting cold. unbelieveable right?

sunday is a blue day

monday is a blue day...but ..u ugh..... not for me..not...today , sunday is a blue day for me...this weekend is the worst weekends i can remember so far. i couldn't sleep last night...i slept at 4 a.m. after forcing myself to read a book in the darkness to get my eyes tired. hey, it is not a bad idea at all.
my roomie didn't come back home. her mom and brother came from Medan to see doctor so she stayed with her. i guess, i am still not used to sleep before i say 'good night' to her. so lame...bleah..

i woke up this afternoon after everyone has had their breakfast and lunch. i feel uncomfortable. my heart is pondering like mad. i am scared yet i feel like to do nothing about it. this 'phenomenon' has happened to me these last few weeks. i thought it is because of drinking too much coffee. but i guess not. many told me to see doctor, which i think it is not necessary, moreover i am not ready to know anything wrong with my body. i still need it to chase my dream. a dream yet comes true.

holiday...holiday....everyone has been waiting for it..so do I. i am having my holiday now. but i still got lots of things to do. people is chasing me after all the postponed assignments.i kind of have started, but i am stuck in the middle of nowhere. i couldn't finish it. i just feel like giving up. i need a drink man..i need one..

oh sunday....it was raining heavily..and i volumed up my computer's speaker to listen what the people in the screen talk. i have watched two movies, i was thinking that they can help me to melt down my numb brain. well... i guess this method doesn't work or i had chosen the wrong movies....i was crying quiet hard while watching..or....ah..i think it works..it really have melted down my numb brain to tears.. =_=

my boyfriend just called me for dinner. but i guess i will just skip the dinner since the guys asked me for a heavy supper tonight in Jurond West.Until then, i will try my best to do my works.

i feel useless.

back to earth

well..this is my second or maybe third blog I have? It has been quite long time ago I stop blogging that i forgot my password..hahaha...well i am back again and this time, I will make sure that I keep myself in front of this site and updating myself ....